The Mystery

Pathogens

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 20:57:15 GMT

I will not forget the Hands that lay before me
I have formed my path through mutilated words
And my maze is interrupted by sinking ships.

It's time to climb down from your throne.
It's time to fix the pieces of broken nodes.

The multitudes of muses lie in ruins.
The vultures gather to pray for benevolence.

Dreaming to find peace in the minds of the righteous.

Where pockmarked mementos eat at their wounds
In a hope that the adrenaline will seep
But the infestation has begun to flood (has by-gones to flood)

Disease - is the new trend amongst the giants.
A new culture is created with major discrepancies.

So whether you choose to live a lie in a beautiful hell.
Or see the truth in the emptiness of a black and white room.
That's your decision

We can only guess what those eyes have seen
We can only live in the wake of your incision

A gash littered in aromas and gushing faithlessness
Onto an already barren sea of parasites
Fondling for comfort
Hoping that they could be loved too
Not just be another
Number, neither do I
Want to be another number
Broken by my own fragile hands

- C. Eli Barnes with Alfredo Domador of In The Aftermath

"Hind sight has no vantage point"

Sat, 23 Feb 2008 07:09:27 GMT

BTHOW: Add. Listen. Love.

"Now, there's no way out"

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 22:18:39 GMT

Guess who's back?! :)

"Clearly, it's bree time baby!"

Thu, 07 Jun 2007 18:34:14 GMT

I know I haven't been on much lately. Apologies for that. My life schedule is crazy. I work the graveyard shift for FedEx Ground between the rough hours of 2:30AM - 8:00AM. Then I have school at 1:00PM. Then, I usually have some sort of band/booking business to take care of. And somewhere between all of that I am finding the time for minimum sleep and nourishment. I honestly don't think my body can keep up with this for too long. Anyways, I do have something to show for all of this. BTHOW's EP is finally done! We got all 4 songs done for about 280 bucks. Not a bad deal at all. Go listen to the new song here. You can also check out the new fresh look I gave the page. All we need now is a new logo, and album artwork. Anyways, the other point of this entry is to check up on all of you, so just drop a line telling me how you all are doing! I've missed you guys. And I promise that I'll try my best to stay in touch. If anything, you all are welcome to add me on AIM. Screenname = fifth x treason. Hit me up anytime! But your best way to reach me is on myspace. Last name = Barnes. <3

"This dream consumes me"

Mon, 28 May 2007 05:34:49 GMT

Friday is such a great film. Mad respect for Ice Cube.
Today consisted of me staying in all day. Relaxing. Taking time for myself.
In other words: Exactly what a Sunday is meant for. A true Sabbath, if you will.
Don't take these kind of days quite often, friends. Maybe I should, but I don't.
Btw, Andy and Aaron have joined BTHOW as bassist and 2nd guitarist.
They've always been mah boys, but we sorta bonded last night as a band.
Went to a nice local show, and had so much fun.
And Friday(the day beforehand), I went to Sawgrass Mall with Amber.
And then we meet up with Steve at Club X-It for this 18+ party.
'Twas extremely chill. I loved it.

Amber and I. I look so....surprised. :O

Oh, and Andy wants to jump mah bones! >_<

[22:27] IdBreeDevil: u didnt go 2 davids?
[22:28] fifth x treason: nah
[22:28] fifth x treason: im sore as fuhhh
[22:28] fifth x treason: and i figured id conserve on gas
[22:28] IdBreeDevil: yeah
[22:28] IdBreeDevil: i was like damn
[22:29] IdBreeDevil: how the fuh can u dance so mutch and not get sore
[22:29] IdBreeDevil: i get all bruised up after every show
[22:29] IdBreeDevil: well except for this one cuse i barely danced
[22:29] fifth x treason: im usually not THIS sore though
[22:29] fifth x treason: i think im getting outta shape
[22:30] fifth x treason: thats why im runnin' in the mornin'
[22:30] IdBreeDevil: im outta shape
[22:30] IdBreeDevil: you got a hawt bod tho ;)
[22:30] fifth x treason: LMFAO
[22:30] IdBreeDevil: i got a gut
[22:30] IdBreeDevil: xD
[22:30] IdBreeDevil: if i was a chick id tottaly rape you
[22:31] fifth x treason: OMFG
[22:31] IdBreeDevil: >:]
[22:31] IdBreeDevil: haha
Lol. Me and my friends act so gay, I swear. XD

Annihilation and the Afterlife

Thu, 24 May 2007 02:57:33 GMT

The tale is ever-changing.
The road will twist and turn:
Like the snake coiled around your broken heart.
Just let the venom sink in. Oh, just let it heal.

Sweat from the heat of the sun bursts in her eyes.
Doves and notes create discordance in those palms.
This is the end: Your cries are useless.

I will map all of your disturbances.
And I will pinpoint your central theme.
Then you'll know what it's really like to die inside.
And I wanted to tell you my feelings, love. But it's too late.
The Prophet tells me a way to find my faith.

Come take me home
And I'm tired of chasing corsets
in the shapes of your latest vice
Come take me home
Oh, take me away to another World.

A World with new features and playthings.
A World that will be fully aware that I....

I will tear you apart.
I will drink your sin.
I will live forever.
I am all that's left
(.....to despise)

"Daydream sex, broken marriage fuck"

Sun, 20 May 2007 21:05:46 GMT

The rave was fucking extraordinary. I had so much fun: sober
I'd like to take the time to let all of you know that I am not straight edge.
I am just clean. And I'm not judgmental either. I don't care about the choices
others make. Like, most of my friends are straight edge and whatnot. And some
do drink and smoke cigs. And I have a couple who smoke pot. For example, my best
friend in Tampa(Zach) does a whole buncha shit. And when we were roommates, I WAS
extremely close-minded. But he's the one who made me realize that even though we're
almost total opposites as far as lifestyle goes, he's still a great fucking guy. And
a friend for life. Life, people. I love the shit outta that guy. Lol. He's mah dawg!
But anyways, 'twas my first rave. I had the chance to hook up with sooooooo many girls.
But: I didn't. And I have no clue why. I am single. And not really committed to anyone.
And yet, I let those hookup opportunities pass me by. I think 'tis cuz I'm starting to
like this girl: Amber. She's the main reason I went, aside from the fact of going with
the bandmates. I met her on myspace, I added her cuz I saw her on one of the DJ's comments.
I thought she was cute. She's 19(score). So I thought "Why not?". Well, we met on
Friday night and had a pleasant outing at Denny's. I never in my life had so much fun just
talking with someone. She's extremely cool and very chill. I was such a gentleman too.
I did not hit on her at all. I'm actually pretty proud of myself. And then yesterday she hung
out with us for the better half of the day, and then we went to the rave. To be honest, Amber
and I didn't really hang out much once we got to the club. But when we did, we had fun.
And I figured I'd just leave her alone, and not bug her. But then she actually made a complaint
about me not spending enough time with her once we were leaving. So uhhhh I dunno. I don't really care if we just end up being friends. I enjoy her company. We'll see where it goes.

"This is our family: No one gets left behind"

Fri, 18 May 2007 09:11:06 GMT

I am hooked on Black My Heart's "We Weren't Brought Up Right".
You can thank Kaylee for that! :P

Anyways, I've been doing the proper vocal exercises this week.
Turns out that I wasn't suffering from a common cold, but my throat
got fucked up due to the mildew that was on my shower curtains.
So yeah. I got rid of 'em and completely cleaned my bathroom.
Hell, it even smells fresh! In result, I'm starting to get
my voices back. But I picked up this new voice as well. Once I get
situated with my normal voices, I am most definitely gonna look into
shaping this new one up. To kinda give you it's range, think of a mix
of Bring Me The Horizon and Suicide Silence

Btw, me and the rest of BTHOW shall be going to a rave this Saturday.
Yup. You read that statement right! We're metal enough to rave! Muahahaha!

XD

Triple C's

Tue, 15 May 2007 18:52:17 GMT

Hip hop. Trip hop. Flip flops.
Thick socks. Slick rocks. Tick tocks.
Maniacal poets keep ya guns cocked: Get ready to flow.
Even when there's big stocks to stack. Try not to let the wind blow.
But for now, just slow it all down. Rewind. Pause. And just CHILL.
Keep it calm. Keep it cool. Or just notice the collective.
Respected detectives with brown eyes to realize the differences
from another perspective. The objective: The rulings of a clause.
The food fillin' the bellies of the greedy while the needy click their jaws.
But remember to stop and think: We all have flaws.
The stark raven taunting the stork, but his package is flawless.
The thoughtless: empty tanks with cesspools.
The minerals cleanse the mind, but we can still be fools.
Stay smooth. and re-trace your steps.
Go back to the times when we had baby steps.
The times of when rhyming came thru nursery.
The sweet taste of jungle punch to quench when we thirsty,
But now those days have passed, but I'll remember them well.
Just keep a smile as we enter the cauldron: Ingredients to create the perfect Spell.

This is knowledge laced with purity.

Better yet, this is an anthem. A temper tantrum to show the world
that the form of the Holy Ghost can be considered a phantom.
But it's not the right time to throw all your chips in.
A gamble of life or death, just let the cold grip slip in.
But I'm too busy tryin' to fit in. The back of the class
is where I'll remain. Never raise my hand, cuz everyone
question sounds the same. Just stay quiet and let the
mates think I'm lame. But I smirk at the thought of
the looks on their faces when I gain my fame. Or rather
claim it. Cuz I'm unstoppable. The chances of
me giving up are highly improbable. Add 2 dudes
reppin' one crew, plus 3 dawgs on guard, 7 chicks
tryin' to make shit shift. 8 drugs teachin' thugs
how to bug. I guess their lessons will be learned
when they receive countless slugs. Hah.
Guess I picked up somethin' from Math. Good to know
that I'm finally on the right path.

These are the makings of a tyrant. Not
politically or physically, but mentally and lyrically.
This is gotta be: My last chance to stand tall....

"My movement is so epic..."

Sun, 13 May 2007 17:21:44 GMT

".....Ya'll remember me in slo-mo"

I've decided to start a hip-hop project with my drummer Steve.
I shall be writing the lyrics and doing vocals.
Steve shall be doing the same as well as producing the beats.
And I'd like to emphasize the fact that we'll be doing hip hop
Not rap: There's a very big difference. We'd have some rap influences,
but mainly hip hop. Abstract hip hop to be precise.
Here's some of the main influences:
Cool Calm Pete, Aesop Rock, Busdriver, Jedi Mind Tricks, Wu-Tang Clan.
Just to kind of give you an idea of what direction we'd be going.
I'm going to start writing soon, and I'll let you guys know when
we have a myspace and/or demos up! ;]

I am not dead yet.....

Tue, 08 May 2007 17:33:08 GMT

I plan to catch up with every single one of you this week.
Apologies for not being on here, but life has thrown me numerous curve balls.
School's been hectic, as well as my social life. But I am getting back on
track with everything. So, take this entry to let me know how you all
are doing. In other words:

What's new, peeps?! ;]

Married To The Mic!

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 15:01:14 GMT

I have come to the conclusion that I need to focus on me.
Which includes: My thoughts, my family, my vocals, but most
importantly of all: my writings. I've gotten great feedback so
far on Carnage and its Compliments. And for those who have
yet to read it, 'tis 2 entries back. Feedback is still appreciated.
I'm already in the process writing the new song: Autopsy.
The title may change though. I don't know just yet. Also, the whole
Mel situation is dead. We remain as friends. 'Twas mutual. But,
lookee here. I stopped pursuing women. And then along comes a
fancy little gal named Kayt
The first night we spoke for a total of maybe 5 and a half hours.
She's a writer AND photographer. And a complex thinker like I.
And then last night we spoke on the phone for about 3 hours or so.
I was nervous as hell, but I did a great job of keeping the convo going.
We discussed many things, argued about her cuteness, and joked twice as much.
I am to meet her on Saturday, she's taking promo pics for the band. :]
But, I am not rushing into this whatsoever. I explained to her
my isolation plan, and she respects it. So for now, ladies and gents:

I am married to the mic! <3

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 15:26:54 GMT

Everyone comment the entry before this one!
'Tis my first writing in months
I'd really like some feedback.
Oh, and I wanna get a new l/j layout/theme.
Assistance is greatly appreciated.
Thankees. ;]

Carnage and its Compliments

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 15:30:20 GMT

I am the one built by bloodshed and bones
Why can't I be the one to cry?
Why can't I realize the pain through torture?
And when your dreams break down - into voices
without the sounds: I want you to remember my name.
This distance: Makes me grow weary.
I am led astray: But I know my heart will find a way.
And when this village is swarmed.
And when the corpses are dragged away by dawn.
We shall rise to claim the seats of the honorable Gods.
Embrace my purity. Embrace the flames
Embrace the signs. Embrace the End
The world will know and the world shall see:
That everything can not be free.
We are the faithful. We are the heartless.
And we shall ride the storm,
to bring the Plague in its truest form.
And we shall cleanse this Earth: one last fucking time.
War. Wrath. And fear. Your cities will perish.

Writing, Wailing and Women

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 16:15:40 GMT

I need to get back into the swing of things.
I'm going to re-write Carnage and its Compliments
Lyrics dont fit the song anymore. The way we perform it(which
has been sort of free verse as of late) needs more suitable and
somewhat more "haunting" lyrics. I'm also going to be
writing something completely new. The working title
at the moment is The Mystery of Mr. Grimes. Something
that would've been used for [The Morning Lost](my old band)
I think it is time to finally bring it forth and UNLEASH THE BEAST! XD
And yes, 'tis going to tell a grand and complex tale.
Ah, I'm most likely going to be helping out our buddies in the The Great Purge on vox.
At least, until they find a more suitable vocalist. They're a good group
of guys, and we've played many shows with them. They're death metal as well,
but more on the grind side. And they have 2 guitarists who can sweep. T.T
Btw, that's not me on vox on their myspace page. I wish I was that great.
That's the old vocalist.I have some BIG shoes to fill. X.X
But whatever, I live for challenges. 'Tis an odd fixation.
You can catch me virtually sucking with TGP April 27th at The Talent Farm.
We'll be performing with my fucking heroes in THE HEARTLAND! Whom I've shared
the stage with before back in August when I was in [TML]. "Nervous" doesn't begin to scratch the surface of my feelings and thoughts.
EDIT: Nevermind all that. They found someone more suitable. Thank heavens! XD
And for the last tidbit of info: I'm STILL crushing Mel. She broke up with Chuck.
He thinks I influenced. Which I didn't. Honestly. She made the decision. I never
told her to break up with him or even hinted at the intention. So I'm guilt-free.
Which means that I shall be runnin' mah FULL game now!
I am to see her this evening. Perhaps dinner and a movie. *Prepares* ;]

Business is about to pick up v.2

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 13:51:14 GMT

I am so fucking stoked. BTHOW(my band) has just appointed 2 dates in May for recording at Simplekill Studios. We're hoping to get about 3-5 songs done. Realistically looking at a solid 3 though. Hell, I'd be content with just one song. For, in my experiences, 'tis better to have one SOLID, KICK ASS song: Rather than 3-5 mediocre ones. Also, we're playing May 20th at the Revolution in Ft. Lauderdale. Yeah, you heard right. Fucking Revolution! That place is massive. And there will also be a buncha record execs there as well, rumor has it. So let's all keep our fingers crossed on that one. I am loving the direction that BTHOW is going. We're becoming a lot more structured, and pretty much abandoning the grindcore aspect of things. Now, 'tis a little more on the progressive side. But no worries. We've still got the brutality of Death Metal. And our breakdowns are no longer hardcore. They're just "eat your fucking face" type breaks now. I am looking forward to presenting this to all of you in due time. Btw, I'm MADLY crushing Mel. But she is taken. But she has feelings for me. Idk. Complicated. So, I suppose I shall seek interest elsewhere? Nah. I'll wait. The relationship doesn't seem to be going too well either way. And no, I didn't put a hand in that. I am not a homewrecker! I asked her about the situation, and her response was "Please don't wait. It'll make me feel terrible. When it happens, it happens." She said when, not if. That makes a BIG difference. Alas, I AM single. So I should have fun while I still can! ;]

Business is about to pick up!

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 15:43:57 GMT

Today is coming along great so far.
My critical thinking class was a breeze
He even let us out early. What a great guy!
And tonight is the With Blood Comes Cleansing show.
It's in effin' Homestead, but worth the drive.
Me and David are going to also support are homies in ITA and FOAH
And tomorrow is Kenny's bday party. Most likely gonna be a rent at South Beach.
So I'm having a pretty good outlook for the weekend.
Which is precisely what I need!
And right now, I am chattin' it up with my buddy Mel.

itsss melx (11:05:23 am): Hey
itsss melx (11:05:24 am): How are you?
robotiks dot com (11:05:27 am): hiyo
robotiks dot com (11:05:38 am): im doing quite alrite
robotiks dot com (11:05:44 am): had a bit of drama last night
robotiks dot com (11:05:51 am): but TONIGHT
robotiks dot com (11:06:00 am): going to support all my homies.
robotiks dot com (11:06:10 am): and yourself?
itsss melx (11:06:44 am): O for real
robotiks dot com (11:06:49 am): yeah
itsss melx (11:06:49 am): Whaa happenned?
itsss melx (11:06:56 am): U ok?
itsss melx (11:07:03 am): And school
robotiks dot com (11:07:16 am): this chick that was crushing me
robotiks dot com (11:07:37 am): almost started an all out fight between me and my ex-2nd guitarist
robotiks dot com (11:07:50 am): cuz she was telling me he was talking shit
robotiks dot com (11:08:04 am): and she was telling him that me and J were talking shit
robotiks dot com (11:08:15 am): so yeah
itsss melx (11:08:28 am): Ew
robotiks dot com (11:08:33 am): i was like "i cant believe i actually started to trust you"
itsss melx (11:08:40 am): U need me to beat a hoe?
robotiks dot com (11:08:44 am): ROFL
itsss melx (11:08:45 am): Good
robotiks dot com (11:08:47 am): yes plz!
robotiks dot com (11:09:13 am): so yeah. i stopped talking to her.
robotiks dot com (11:09:19 am): cuz to make things worst
robotiks dot com (11:09:24 am): she tried to flip the tables
robotiks dot com (11:09:47 am): "oh i never said shit. wtf? i cant trust you. you're a dick."
robotiks dot com (11:09:59 am): and she ends it with "go fucking die."
robotiks dot com (11:10:10 am): me "....no. im cool. good byeeeee :]
robotiks dot com (11:10:19 am): and left it at that
itsss melx (11:16:08 am): Ew I hate chicks like that
itsss melx (11:16:14 am): They make guys dicks
itsss melx (11:16:21 am): And
itsss melx (11:16:27 am): good that u were mature about it
robotiks dot com (11:18:19 am): this is true. girls like that can eventually turn me into an asshole
robotiks dot com (11:18:29 am): but pathetically, thats what they want
robotiks dot com (11:18:39 am): an asshole. a guy to treat em like shit
itsss melx (11:25:09 am): No don't become that
itsss melx (11:25:15 am): Pssh
itsss melx (11:25:20 am): I won't let you
itsss melx (11:25:26 am): But I know u well enough u don't have the heart
itsss melx (11:25:34 am): To become one
robotiks dot com (11:25:51 am): pffft
robotiks dot com (11:25:57 am): you dunno me!
robotiks dot com (11:26:03 am): i got PEOPLES
robotiks dot com (11:26:11 am): and and
robotiks dot com (11:26:19 am): imA thug
robotiks dot com (11:26:25 am): .....and im
itsss melx (11:26:35 am): The sweetest guy ever
robotiks dot com (11:26:38 am): .....gangster?
robotiks dot com (11:26:42 am): ROFL
robotiks dot com (11:27:04 am): awwwwwwww
robotiks dot com (11:27:10 am): what a sweetheart!
itsss melx (11:28:03 am): Yes I know
itsss melx (11:28:08 am): You don't need to be an asshole
itsss melx (11:28:14 am): And I promise ill try to filter asshole chicks from you so that u don't become an asshole
itsss melx (11:28:19 am): Cause nononono. u an asshole won't happen

Oh, and btw. I still want feedback on my last entry!
I honestly would like to know how all my friends are doing: new and old.
So leave comments on that entry about how youre doing.
And leave me feedback on the subject matter that Mel and I discussed!
Love.

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 12:25:33 GMT

How's everyone doing? I am curious.
And would like a good reaction to this entry.
So...go. Talk

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 00:31:56 GMT

sigh :/

"You wanna see us fall? Not today motherfucker!"

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 04:35:25 GMT

i'm getting swamped by lyrical ideas/themes.
i need to sort it all out. speaking of, i'm also
getting swamped by drama and confusion. so, this
weekend i've decided i am going to be an outgoing
yet cynical bastard. and i also plan on pitting
till i fucking bleed. i mean that. i grow weary
of letting petty factors bring me down. so im
not letting it happen anymore. oh, and i better
hear from you this weekend LORRA! that's right.
you've been called out, nukka. and i've also come to
the conclusion that Emily is feisty jailbate
rofl. don't ask. cuz i wouldnt know where to start.
other than that, im just ready to go all out this month:
we have a total of 6 shows confirmed, and 2 TBA.
needless to say, i'm gonna be UBER busy! :X

"It's Not Over 'Till I Say It's Over!"

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 07:42:21 GMT

been a VERY long while.
how's everyone doing on here?
some new changes you all should know about:

- single. so holla!
- new name for esau. BTHOW
- new changes/updates on my personal account: clicky here!
- new booking/promotions team: DFS
- i'd like some new friends. so everyone start introducing me to other peeps!
- i believe that is all. some new lyrics coming soon.

much love,

[Bard]

"It's Not Over 'Till I Say It's Over!"

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 07:10:16 GMT

I've left [TML]

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 20:34:06 GMT

Yup. Dead serious.
And to answer the questions
I am most likely gonna get:

- It doesnt matter how talented a band is,
you don't have to put up with unnecessary drama

- For the past 2 months or so, I have had much stress
because of the aforementioned drama. I'm 20 years old.
I sure as hell don't need that in my life right now.

- I just felt that it was time. I'm gonna focus on esau

I'd like to say thanks to all who have supported me and the band.
But I'm not discouraged or sad, 'tis all just a bump in the road.
'Tis all just a learning experience that'll help me grow. So, yes!
I am NOT down for the count just yet. Expect more things from me! :]

Sincerely,

[Bard]

Annihilation and the Afterlife

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 20:36:39 GMT

You're always giving me the cold shoulder
Perhaps I could warm it up with the blood from your thoughts
And then throw in some of the effects of your beating heart
A melting pot of bodily filth: A decaying process of romance
These are the consequences of trying to bring me down
And I'm tired of chasing corsets in the shape of your latest vice
Now that you've witnessed this mental massacre,
What will you do about the structure of your soul?
I will tear you apart. I will drink your sin.

20 Years of Progression

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 08:32:34 GMT

Time waits for no one.

I am one year stronger.
In all aspects. Physically, Mentally, Emotionally.
And I am content with life.
I have a loving family:
- the Sexy Squad
- my [TML] bros
- my bestest of friends
- my adorable lafyfriend Rachel Alexis
- my newest buddies as well!

Thanks to all for the love and well wishes.

Here's to many more years to come.

Happy Birthday to Me!

[Bard]

The Mystery

Pathogens

"Hind sight has no vantage point"

"Now, there's no way out"

Guess who's back?! :)

"Clearly, it's bree time baby!"

"This dream consumes me"

Annihilation and the Afterlife

"Daydream sex, broken marriage fuck"

"This is our family: No one gets left behind"

Triple C's

"My movement is so epic..."

I am not dead yet.....

What's new, peeps?! ;]

Married To The Mic!

I am married to the mic! <3

Everyone comment the entry before this one!'Tis my first writing in monthsI'd really like some feedback.Oh, and I wanna get a new l/j layout/theme.Assistance is greatly appreciated. Thankees. ;]

Carnage and its Compliments

Writing, Wailing and Women

Business is about to pick up v.2

Business is about to pick up!

*sigh* :/

"You wanna see us fall? Not today motherfucker!"

"It's Not Over 'Till I Say It's Over!"

"It's Not Over 'Till I Say It's Over!"

I've left [TML]

Annihilation and the Afterlife

20 Years of Progression

Happy Birthday to Me!

Everyone comment the entry before this one!
'Tis my first writing in months
I'd really like some feedback.
Oh, and I wanna get a new l/j layout/theme.
Assistance is greatly appreciated.
Thankees. ;]

sigh :/